Friday, August 04, 2006
I called, left a message this morning, no word yet. So....
I applied to be the gnome's co-worker today. It would majorly suck if I can't get a job there. And once they get their new building, it might get easier to schmooze with their art department.
It hasn't been too busy at my internship. The kitchen lady (who's more of a kitchen-and-all-around-custodian-lady) didn't come in today, so the receptionists gave me the task to empty out any full waste baskets. I agreed with a smile but fell a little pissy inside. I went up to the other intern (who was next to an artistic supervisor) that I went to 7.5 years of college to take out the trash of a visual effects company. (The artistic supervisor then remarked that he's a community college drop-out. Heh. But he's cool, so that statement was a bit funny.)
Anyway, Whateley called not too long after, so I vented to him, to which he replied, "Why didn't you use that as an excuse to talk to the artists?" I could've killed him. Why? Cuz he was right. (I hate it when he does that.)
I mean, I don't need an excuse to talk to the artists, they know I'm an intern and they fully expect someone like me to talk to them. But here's one thing I found about myself awhile ago. I'm a coward and non-confrontational. And while there's absolutely nothing confrontational about talking to artists, I feel shy. Like I'm bothering them. There's another intern who's so much better at this. His artistic skills are so-so (pretty good but I'm not sure if it's good enough... either that or his reel doesn't really reflect his skillz) but he's so comfortable just approaching people and talking with them. Me? I can fake it. And I can chat very well in a networking/forced-to-socialize setting. But when it comes to talking to people while they work.... Ugh. I had to pick an industry that requires networking like mad.
So in the end, they will take a chance on the gregarious intern with the so-so skills, but I don't think they'll take a chance on an intern whom they've only gotten to know as the delivery girl. Sigh.
I should rename this blog as "Sigh." I seem to do that a lot.
I applied to be the gnome's co-worker today. It would majorly suck if I can't get a job there. And once they get their new building, it might get easier to schmooze with their art department.
It hasn't been too busy at my internship. The kitchen lady (who's more of a kitchen-and-all-around-custodian-lady) didn't come in today, so the receptionists gave me the task to empty out any full waste baskets. I agreed with a smile but fell a little pissy inside. I went up to the other intern (who was next to an artistic supervisor) that I went to 7.5 years of college to take out the trash of a visual effects company. (The artistic supervisor then remarked that he's a community college drop-out. Heh. But he's cool, so that statement was a bit funny.)
Anyway, Whateley called not too long after, so I vented to him, to which he replied, "Why didn't you use that as an excuse to talk to the artists?" I could've killed him. Why? Cuz he was right. (I hate it when he does that.)
I mean, I don't need an excuse to talk to the artists, they know I'm an intern and they fully expect someone like me to talk to them. But here's one thing I found about myself awhile ago. I'm a coward and non-confrontational. And while there's absolutely nothing confrontational about talking to artists, I feel shy. Like I'm bothering them. There's another intern who's so much better at this. His artistic skills are so-so (pretty good but I'm not sure if it's good enough... either that or his reel doesn't really reflect his skillz) but he's so comfortable just approaching people and talking with them. Me? I can fake it. And I can chat very well in a networking/forced-to-socialize setting. But when it comes to talking to people while they work.... Ugh. I had to pick an industry that requires networking like mad.
So in the end, they will take a chance on the gregarious intern with the so-so skills, but I don't think they'll take a chance on an intern whom they've only gotten to know as the delivery girl. Sigh.
I should rename this blog as "Sigh." I seem to do that a lot.
Friday, July 28, 2006
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Crossing my fingers... why won't they call??? And yet, while they don't call, there's still hope....
From what I gather, the #1 reason people quit WoW is because it ends up taking over their lives. I'm trying really hard not to let it, but it's hard when the gnome attains level 60 last night and you feel left behind and you wanna catch up but you don't want to just grind your way to 60....
List of things to do is too great to fathom, but at the moment WoW shouldn't be on that list... except that I really want to sell those swords cuz we have 4 levels to earn 500 more gold so I can buy an epic mount, and the other things on that to-do list are boring or overwhelming, and WoW is so easy to wrap your head around.
Meanwhile, it seems the only artistic things I can do at my internship is light Photoshop work. Sigh....
From what I gather, the #1 reason people quit WoW is because it ends up taking over their lives. I'm trying really hard not to let it, but it's hard when the gnome attains level 60 last night and you feel left behind and you wanna catch up but you don't want to just grind your way to 60....
List of things to do is too great to fathom, but at the moment WoW shouldn't be on that list... except that I really want to sell those swords cuz we have 4 levels to earn 500 more gold so I can buy an epic mount, and the other things on that to-do list are boring or overwhelming, and WoW is so easy to wrap your head around.
Meanwhile, it seems the only artistic things I can do at my internship is light Photoshop work. Sigh....
Friday, July 21, 2006
I wanna talk about someone, and I don't think that someone reads this blog, and I also don't think I'll be running into this someone since it's this someone's last day here.
I delivered some paperwork for "Rita" for her new job as a receptionist (she said "assistant" so that means receptionist / administrative assistant, she said the job duties will be similiar to here, so basically, receptionist) and because I'm a nosy little fart, I took a peek at her paperwork. The reason she took this job was because she'd be getting paid a lot more than she was here. Well, it seemed so, since it'd be in the low 40's. Anyway, also saw her birthdate, and I didn't realize she's older than she looks. She's in the early 30's... barely. I asked her how'd she feel about working at a boring finance company, and she shrugged and said she wanted to save up money so she could go do what she really wanted to do. I asked her what she wanted to do. She said something in the creative field, preferrably fashion. But to get in the fashion world, especially as a non-designer, would require moving up the ranks from grunt-work (much like what I'm doing now) . So I was thinking in the car, I don't know how long she's been a receptionist, but she's been at it for about ten years since graduating college (I assume). And I'm thinking, even if she works at this new place for just a few years to save up money, she'd be near forty before she could begin as a lowly fashion assistant! I don't know how the fashion industry works, but I know age makes a bigger perception in fashion than most other industries, and I would think starting in your late 30's would be a really big drawback. (Unless she saved up every penny and only worked for two more years as a receptionist, and then she'd be in her mid-30's.)
Anyway, I was thinking, it's not like she's trying to start a second career (well, technically, I guess she is, but it's not like she doesn't know what she wants to do, or else she's tried one path and is going to try another). It's more like, she settled for whatever job would pay her the most and put her "passion" on hold. And there's nothing wrong with that. I told an SAT student once that a lot of the career advice out there is: find what you like to do and get someone to pay you for it. But that only works sometimes. I mean, how many people will pay you to play WoW? Well, I suppose you could be a gold farmer, but that's not really playing, it's still work, and besides, it's not honest work. I don't know if it's officially illegal, but you get the idea.
Anyway, the advice I gave him was: Find out what you like to do, and figure out the best way to do as much of it as you can. If you can get paid to do it, great. Otherwise, you'll have to find a job that will let you have enough time and money and energy to do the thing you like to do.
I was making this observation because in terms of Rita, it seems like she would rather have money and comfort than pursuing her "dream." And there's nothing wrong with that, except that if this dream was important enough to her, then instead of spending the last ten years (and the next five) being a receptionist, she should just go and try to be a fashion assistant, while she's still young enough to endure the lack of money and grunt work. I look at my fellow interns here, and we're all young (actually, I think I am the oldest... bleh) and we're all hoping that by the time we're 30, we'll be doing what we want to be doing.
But I'm talking out of my ass, so if anyone has anything to chime in, please do so. I'm sure the gnome will get on my case about how my "pursuit of my dream" is putting us in the poorhouse. Yes, it's been hard, it's been a tough sacrifice, but having worked "a real job" that I hated, I have to keep trying. And I've been fortunate that I've had the chance to "not get a real job" because there are so many out there where that is not an option.
I delivered some paperwork for "Rita" for her new job as a receptionist (she said "assistant" so that means receptionist / administrative assistant, she said the job duties will be similiar to here, so basically, receptionist) and because I'm a nosy little fart, I took a peek at her paperwork. The reason she took this job was because she'd be getting paid a lot more than she was here. Well, it seemed so, since it'd be in the low 40's. Anyway, also saw her birthdate, and I didn't realize she's older than she looks. She's in the early 30's... barely. I asked her how'd she feel about working at a boring finance company, and she shrugged and said she wanted to save up money so she could go do what she really wanted to do. I asked her what she wanted to do. She said something in the creative field, preferrably fashion. But to get in the fashion world, especially as a non-designer, would require moving up the ranks from grunt-work (much like what I'm doing now) . So I was thinking in the car, I don't know how long she's been a receptionist, but she's been at it for about ten years since graduating college (I assume). And I'm thinking, even if she works at this new place for just a few years to save up money, she'd be near forty before she could begin as a lowly fashion assistant! I don't know how the fashion industry works, but I know age makes a bigger perception in fashion than most other industries, and I would think starting in your late 30's would be a really big drawback. (Unless she saved up every penny and only worked for two more years as a receptionist, and then she'd be in her mid-30's.)
Anyway, I was thinking, it's not like she's trying to start a second career (well, technically, I guess she is, but it's not like she doesn't know what she wants to do, or else she's tried one path and is going to try another). It's more like, she settled for whatever job would pay her the most and put her "passion" on hold. And there's nothing wrong with that. I told an SAT student once that a lot of the career advice out there is: find what you like to do and get someone to pay you for it. But that only works sometimes. I mean, how many people will pay you to play WoW? Well, I suppose you could be a gold farmer, but that's not really playing, it's still work, and besides, it's not honest work. I don't know if it's officially illegal, but you get the idea.
Anyway, the advice I gave him was: Find out what you like to do, and figure out the best way to do as much of it as you can. If you can get paid to do it, great. Otherwise, you'll have to find a job that will let you have enough time and money and energy to do the thing you like to do.
I was making this observation because in terms of Rita, it seems like she would rather have money and comfort than pursuing her "dream." And there's nothing wrong with that, except that if this dream was important enough to her, then instead of spending the last ten years (and the next five) being a receptionist, she should just go and try to be a fashion assistant, while she's still young enough to endure the lack of money and grunt work. I look at my fellow interns here, and we're all young (actually, I think I am the oldest... bleh) and we're all hoping that by the time we're 30, we'll be doing what we want to be doing.
But I'm talking out of my ass, so if anyone has anything to chime in, please do so. I'm sure the gnome will get on my case about how my "pursuit of my dream" is putting us in the poorhouse. Yes, it's been hard, it's been a tough sacrifice, but having worked "a real job" that I hated, I have to keep trying. And I've been fortunate that I've had the chance to "not get a real job" because there are so many out there where that is not an option.
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